Birfday Goals

Today is my birthday and want to set some goals for myself… but the only goal I can think to have any meaning to me right now is just this:

 

I want to get up everyday, set everyday goals for myself, achieve everyday success, and honor the powers that be in my life by living up to my potential.

What does that mean? Something different every day but I know that when I was going through treatment and after, when I felt kind of lost, I was able to find a tremendous amount of peace and personal pride in everyday success, small success, like walking it all the way to my parents Inn (from their house) two weeks after major abdominal surgery and getting up every single morning and going down to the treadmill they have in the basement and interval running for 30 minutes, even if my legs hurt so much by the end that I was in audible pain and tears.  I drove myself and I need to wake up like I felt I was then.

I have let fear creep into my life…. fear that I might lose my job and fear that I might never find love again and fear that I cannot lose the weight or fear that I will never have a bakery again….

Those kind of fears dishonor who I am and what has driven me in my life all along.  I believe that one can awake love and light in their life through everyday success and living up to one’s potential every day.  And it can be goals as small as “I want to write a menu for myself for the week and stick to it” or “I want to workout today”…. or “I want to write a budget for myself and stick to it” … it doesn’t have to weight related…. “I want to go for a walk everyday for my lunch break to smell the roses” or “I want to sit down at a table for each meal and enjoy it”…. this is what I believe is right and energetically positive and this represents who I am or who I want to be and I am going to set a goal today to do that because it is important to me.

I used to understand this and had balance and something has happened and I don’t feel alive like I did…. but I’m sick of feeling confused and sad about it….. because that is just another thing holding me back from changing it…..

So that is my goal.  To live up to my potential, even if it is hard or the things I desire for myself are difficult to achieve…. because I am not afraid and I believe that what happens in my life is all part of a journey that I’m on and I accept and trust that journey and what it brings…. whatever it brings.

That’s right, if you thought I was already pretty awesome….. I believe I have the capacity to be MORE awesome.  And so do you.

xoxoxoxo